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Doom is coming next week! Wahahah! What am i supposed to do?! What if they ask me to do this do that and i do it wrongly? I'll just sit in a corner and cry. For sure!. Hahahah. What if they're all EVIL?!!?!! HAhahahha. I'll just be like " think about happy baby bunnies! happy baby bunnies!" Hhahahaha. baby bunny so cute now. Those cute beady eyes. The clean soft fur. The stuff toy smell. The way he snuggles next to you. Awwwww. So adorable. Like Awwwwww. Hahaha. Christmas was at phuket. haha. Got to be tan tan. Whoo hoo. Haven.t been tan for so long. Dokay. That's all that i should say for now. Will update when doom starts. WAHAHAHHA! Imagine everyday i'll be like @?!@#&#@#%!!?!@!#*@%#$!
chef in the making wrote
11:18 PM
Seems like this is all over.Time to say Goodbye.I won't be spending time with you nee more.I won't be cared by you nee more.I won't be anything to you nee more.Nothing's gonna happen nee more.Our secret deal is then over huh? haha. One of our craziest deals.But didn't sign in black & white yet. Haha.Wish we did so that i could keep it as a memory.All these will just have to be kept inside and for no one to know but me.Only one walks away? Maybe i might even want to stay.Never want to leave.Even if i say all these no one would believe.I don't think you would too.I'm too much of a liar.I understand. It's a problem of mine.So i'm gonna say something. But most probably you wouldn't believe. Haha.Texting stuff was just playing. He and I had been together for like 4 years. Closest friends. If that's what you said. Friends are people that you share problems with and trust. I do. Him the most. Like my bestest brother. i just play a lot. sick stuff even i'll play along. He knows. Like i said it's alright if you don't believe.Tears for you? I don't know why. But they just do. It's not my fault.Flashbacks make it even worse.
chef in the making wrote
5:58 AM
He said that I have to find true friends. And that it takes time for people to realise who it is. After realising, it might sometimes be too late. So i asked... Will i be alone forever? He said no... But then I asked again it's always give and nothing in return. He then said.. you don't have to get something in return it's what your heart gives and whether the other party appreciates it or not. But it feels unfair to always be giving. And the things one receives back from them is shit. Most just make use. One feels like a toy. You play with it and when you're bored of it just throw it away. One's kinda getting used to it. But then again it ain't right for one.I love to look at you when you're looking away from me.I love to look at you when you're looking down.I love to see your face, As it lives by each day.And I know that I can't have you forever.But it's ok.*I wanna go to paris and find a rat that can cook!*
chef in the making wrote
5:44 AM
I'm in! I'm really in! I received a call last friday which is the 23rd of november. I answerd and guess who it was??? Hahaha. It was the hotel calling. I'm gonna sign the contract this wednesday! Choo HOO!!! When they called i was like am i in a dream? Hahaha. I'm was like super uber happy! Will have to start work next year. Work WORK Work. And more work the year after. After the 2 slogging years of damn work then i'll go study! Heard there's a new course in SIM. Like 6 months in switzerland and the rest in Singapore. Wow Switzerland. But i'll then have to depend on my mummy to look after my bunnies. Well... Gotta go prepare for class later. CHOO HOO!!!
chef in the making wrote
7:32 PM
Was supposed to do a surprise execution today. But went there and waited and nothing turned out. Hahah. looks like surprise execution was a failure. Hahah. Too bad. i just wasn't meant to see him. haha. It's alright. Had some alone time which was kinda nice. Wanted to go shopping alone but after making that call it just shattered once again. I've got a call from swissotel just now. Hahah. i was like super uber happy when i got that call. I love that place. I love the hotel smell. I love the decor. I love the ambience. I love everything. HAhaha. I think if i get it, i'll just say yes on the spot. Hahaha. I'll go eat now. Why does it always have to shatter? hahah.
chef in the making wrote
3:24 AM
It's almost time to go for attachment! Kinda happy but then again kinda worried. Am i gonna be able to tolerate it or as some of you would say 'tahan'. haha. I think i'll be dry from tears after the whole year. Haha. I'll just be crying everyday cause of demands and scoldings. Awww man the pressure. I think i'll faint! I can lose weight next year. Don't think will eat much. Imagine sweating every single day. Even excercising won't be necessary. Haha. Everyone will be seperating. All going to different places. But who knows? If there's fate to go to the same place then ooook. Hahaha. I'm afraid that if i can't get into any hotel where would i go?I'll be like the loser! I don't wanna be the loser. Arghhh. I don't know where i want to go. But i hope i'll be able to have at least 2 choices. Please Please! It's time for me to go for confession. Haha. I need to go church more often. I need more faith! FAITH!! arghhhh! It won't be boring soon! Just about 45 more minutes. Then i'll have company! Yay me!I love my DCS class! We're different from the rest. Once again, It always shatters...
chef in the making wrote
4:05 AM
When it's always time, i'll look out the big window hoping to see you by the pillar waiting.If i don't,i'll lie to myself saying that maybe you'll be there later.Sometimes it happens.Sometimes it doesn't.When it does my heart beats fast feeling so happy with big smiles.Even i don't show, it doesn't mean i ain't happy.When it doesn't happen,i'll still wonder and hope for things to happen. But sadly all these useless hopes are just for nothing.I'm not sad now.But i'm not happy either.It's difficult to talk to someone about the many lil' things in my heart.I really want to sometimes.But i don't know who to talk to.It just seems like nobody wants to listen a 17 year old girl pouring her heart out.I think there's too much inside.I think i'm going loopy.Seriously loopy.Haha haha.I hope all of my friends are having fun.Hope they're happy lil' people.Stay happy y'all.
chef in the making wrote
8:39 AM
